and its friday!!! & the AZKALS new recruit.. =)

and its friday!!! i love fridays really although i have to say my weekend is jam-packed yet again. so let’s start the recap of the weekend.. =)

i’m uber glad that i was able to finish everything. All the stuff that I need to work on was settled this week and kudos to me! =)

tomorrow, i’ll be off to my grandma’s house in Tanay, Rizal. Me & me mom will visit her. I also took this opportunity to sched and try to run. My right foot was aching like hell for a few days now but I think i can go on & try running tomorrow. i love running in Tanay coz the air is much fresh there than what we have here in Manila plus i love the view of Laguna Lake and the nearby Sierra Madre mountain ranges. it really clears my mind and the site is soothing to the eyes.. =)

this week, many hearts (of girls & boys alike) got broken when James Younghusband finally announced that he’s taken.. now why does everybody else suddenly felt “taken for granted??” hehe.. let’s just be happy for AZKALS midfielder and move to the next cute AZKAL just hangin’ around the corner.. *wink*

like the many times that my heart got broken, i rely to music to get back on my feet again and for this week, i’m on LSS mode with a song from a local OPM band named Eevee. the song is titled “Larawan.” let me share a part of the lyrics so you guys will know why i’m attracted to the song… =)

Pwede ba kitang

Makunan ng larawan

Kahit isa lang

Para merong ala-ala

Ang ating nakaraan

Ngunit mayron…

Kang ibang minamahal

Kung kaya’t ako’y

‘Di mo pinapansin

Sa larawan na lang kita mahahagkan

Sa larawan na lang tayo magpakasal

Sa larawan na lang, baka pwedeng legal

Dahil dito sa mundo, bawal..

for the record, the song played over and over again in my MP3 and i love the comforting effect it has on me.. =)

and i did say let’s all move on to the next cutie AZKAL hangin’ around the corner right? ^_^

i heard from the news last night that a new AZKAL recruit is in town. Actually, he’s not officially part of the team yet since he has to prove himself first before anything else. ok girls, brace yourselves for the new AZKAL hunk!! Presenting, ANGEL ALDEGUER!! (sorry for the pic, medyo malayo ang kuha & credit to the owner of this pic)

the "angel" who'll be there to get us a few goals in the field.. ^_^

this hunk may not speak english but he’s loaded with a deadly arsenal of talent and skill in football. He’s a Filipino-Spanish striker who’s been playing football since 6 years old. Born in Malaga, Spain to a Filipina mother who hails from the province of Isabela and to a Spanish father. this 6 foot 3 shaggy-haired gentleman plays forward for the Spanish third division club, Deportivo Ronda and also tried out for other football powerhouses like Atletico Madrid and La Deportivo de Coruna.

Angel is given 4 days to impress Coach Weiss and finally lettin’ him in to the team. The National team is currently processing his Philippine Passport in the event that he get drafted in the team officially.

Another cutie in the group, all the more reason for us girls to support the Philippine Football Team AZKALS… ^_^

and that’s the wrap of my weekend! i thought it’ll end in a sour note but finding an “angel” sure did make my week complete! =)

oh shoot! just snap out of it!!! :))

alright, you caught me red-handed.. i admit that me heart got broken (no, make that shattered into pieces) coz the one AZKAL i adore the most has admitted that he has a girlfriend.. yes, James Younghusband is taken, officially (for the record, many heart-broken girls went beserk and went even farther by attempting to commit suicide) it would have been easier to accept (include forgive & forget) if he went after a celebrity perhaps or an athlete maybe but from what i heard the girl is just like most of us, a fan-girl who’s been trailing the team and buying for a chance to have her picture taken with James (pinagpalit nya ko sa ganun lang! charot! haha! eh nakuha naman pala sa picture)..

truth be told, i made peace with it just today. hehe.. took me two freakin’ days to calm down and get hold of myself (before i even try to hunt her down & kill her with my own hands! gorry-much??? hehe!). it’ll take some gettin used to i have to admit but i’d say i’ll get by just fine (ayan, mona ha, me official statement nako! hehe!). so officially, i’m done with it.. =)

now, moving on to better stuff (something worth my time), i officially embraced summer. i plotted my schedule for Summer 2011 and found out that all my weekends are full, well at least until April. haven’t even have the time to sched a run (goodness!). i totally accepted that football will just be a dream and i geared myself towards a new sport.. these past few days, my feet had been aching like hell and our family doctor said its running taking toll on my foot. so i need to do a sport that is low impact and would allow me to heal & relieve stress on my feet so now i’m going to indulge myself into swimming!!! since i love the beach so much i think its about time to learn how to swim… =) but the lessons will have to wait, i have to go on the planned trips first before anything else.

here’s the sched:

march 26 to 31 – Borawan Escapade with college peeps. We’re heading south this time. Off to Padre Burgos, Quezon (life-long dream realized!)

april 09 - Tito Jun’s birthday bash! We’ll go fishing at Isla Talim in Rizal province. I’m excited since i’ll be learning this very peculiar but interesting sport.

april 15 – La Union Trip with the CMG girls! Excited for this one too! This will be my first time to try surfing! i just hope i survive in one piece.

also, i’ll be getting my first ever DSLR!!! woot-woot!!! we’ll get it next saturday, march 12. I’ll be purchasing a Nikon unit, just not decided yet if i’ll get D5000 or D3100.. hay, my summer is full-packed! happy! happy! =)

oh and one more, meet another dashing dude from the Philippine Football Team. Say hi to John Patrick Hinrichsen! Hi Pat! nice to meet you! he is a versatile attacker who can play both effective midfielder and an aggressive and up-front striker. he’s half filipino, half german, mom is a pinay from Pagadian city while dad is a german. at a very young age, he’s already a professional footballer in Germany before his stint here in the philippines. isn’t he adorable? ^_^

loving the dimples! =)

and found this pic worth laughing at on the internet. i used to be a neil etheridge fan but after hearing that there is a “bromance” going on between him & Simon Greatwich, i bailed out! haha! judge for yourselves ladies… =P

bromance alert!!! lolz!!!

i just couldn’t wish for a better summer than this.. this is the life man, this is it.. it may not be perfect but its something worth living…

23 days to go & i’ll see you in Borawan.. now, i’m outta here! good night!

LIFE IS INDEED A ONE HELL OF A TRIP! =)

my week and to the one & only PRINCESS of the group.. ^^

i’m dog-tired today.. super drained (to the last drop) of energy.. had tons of stuff to do this week (some i finished, some i didn’t but will work on it first thing on monday)..

i’m still over-crazed with the sport football and still wanting to play and go “pro” on the sport (kapag keri ko na, hehe). and now i couldn’t deny it any longer that i adore our national team in football, the Philippine Azkals. i follow them like a maniac! haha! this is the first time that i got bitten by the craze & went “gaga” over something or someone.. hehehe.. well what can i do i just heart them & adore everything about them.. dreaming of one day i’ll be able to play football with them..  *wishful thinking*

so while following them around, here are some of the pics i got… now i can see girls screaming! haha! (don’t own the pics alright so peace..)

its jason de jong! =)

heart him! hehe.. pwede bang mag-aaply na GF??? )

early morning run

the younghusband brothers!!! =)

hay i just love them.. *blushing*

well this week ain’t just an “AZKALS”-filled week.. About two weeks ago, we learned about the resignation of one of my friends here in the office. it came as a surprise really and today is her last day.. it really pains me seeing my friends go of course but i always look at the bright side.. i see that she’s happy with her decision leaving the company and i can even see a very promising future for her in her new company.. i just wish her good luck and hopefully we can still find time to do some “girl bonding” and to hang out, eat, drink (maybe), and do some catching up like what we used to do here… =)

to Princess Poblete, former Consumer Marketing Group member, former ABSi employee, and always, a good friend of mine, promise me that you’ll stay grounded no matter where your new path will take you.. remember your dreams, all your aspirations in life and achieve it to the best of your abilities.. never give up, always remember that anything & everything is possible with courage & determination. please know that you’ll be missed.. days here in ABSi will not be complete without your towering heels, vavavoom outfit, and your signature laugh and smiles. also remember that you’ll always have a home here in ABSi and we’ll always be here for you.. =)

we’ll miss you, the one and only PRINCESS of the group! until we meet again… =)

manyak monday ay este manic monday pala!!! :))

i accidentally put the word manyak (and left it there intentionally) and i blame it on DJ Sam YG! haha!

i still am caught up with the “football” fever that hit the nation last February 09 and haven’t been back to my normal “bumming” around self. Since that day, I realized I wanted to play football and I wanted to play the sport badly. I had this delusion that I can go pro with the sport (wow, yan ang nangangarap ng mataas!)! but reality is, i might not be able to do so.. 2 hurdles my friends: i need to put myself into shape and i need to have the determination to run miles without stopping or getting tired and wheezy then going to being catatonic.  currently, i still have to loose about 34kilos more of body fat & my determination to run is waning. i’m having the hardest time to wake up in the morning and run or run after work (coz by then i’m dog-tired).

but somebody said to me that in life, we must have a goal that is as compelling as winning a championship bout or something. He also said that we have to look at life as something like climbing a mountain. we do not hesitate halfway to the summit but keep our eyes and  minds focused on the goal: to reach the top.  so i’m gonna try the sport out and see where it’ll take me.. =)

i’m also looking forward to buying me self a brand new DSLR, a Nikon D5000. i was wary at first because the price is way too much for someone livin’ in a meager salary but mom & dad is supportive and that’s the only key so that i can enroll for MA on film next year. now i see it as an investment. investing for my future so i won’t get stuck in this rut, so i’d be able to change my course (career-wise i mean).

happy that i’m movin’ forward, it may not be with my career but at least i’m movin’ to the next best thing in life… =)

and oh PS folks, this is the reason why i need to learn football so freakin’ bad!!!

Gorgeous lookin' guys playin it rough on the field.. =)

haylab them!!!

i go for the kuya.. =)

got a lot of determination and motivation now, are we eh… )

i survive VALENTINE’S DAY!!! o_O

ok.. today i realized i can’t go on “hibernation mode” simply because i can’t (coz i’m not a bear) and no matter what i do, the world will just go around just the same… so instead of sleeping all the frustration away or sulk and stay bitter for all eternity, i went out with the CMG girls, ate lunch at the posh restaurant in our building and spend the afternoon coffee break “cam-whoring” at starbucks! its a fun, fearless, and fab afternoon with the girls.. =)

ahhuummm… i can’t quite figure out what it is that turned me off v-day.. maybe because after 24 years of waiting, i’m still single (and don’t have a single clue why..) or maybe i just had this firm belief that we should not celebrate love (ng bonggang-bongga) because its valentine’s day.. everyday should be a celebration of love not just this one (awfully) commercialized day of february..

i believe that every girl, no matter what age they’re in, deserves flowers and not just because its v-day or something and i do believe that we’re entitled for love.. everybody deserves it.. =)

i just don’t think that we say the word “i love you” enough. so please don’t forget to say it again on each of the remaining 320 days of the year.. =)

things i learned this week… =)

its one hell of a riot this week but i’m lovin’ every bit of it! as in!

i started the week with a new found love for RUNNING!!! i don’t know what got in me but i just feel like i can run a thousand miles now.. just for this week, i ran 4 times.. can’t believe it coz i used to be so “tamad” to run.. hehehe.. just sayin… =)

ok, so last Feb 09, Team Philippine Azkals (our football team) went head to head with Blue Wolves of Mongolia and they won!!! now, i’m not just in love with running, i also fell for Football! i wanted to learn so bad that i’m scouring all webbies just to find a school for football where i can enroll & learn how to play the game. i’m not aiming to play professionally but i wanted to at least experience playing the game & know everything about football.. now, i’m really shocked.. i already said i’m not a sports buff and i shy-away to anything related to sports but now i’m totally loving it, especially football.. guess i got so inspired by the team Azkal hunks James & Phil Younghusband and Neil Etheridge.. hehehe.. =P

yesterday, i was doing my weekly competitive scan & found this article on one of the websites that i’m scanning: http://www.ourawesomeplanet.com/awesome/2011/02/worlds-best-sandbox-2011-by-butch-j-jimenez.html#more. it was an article by Mr. Anton Diaz of ourawesomeplanet talking about getting a free calendar from Mr. Butch Jimenez. I saw the actual calendar and the pics on it and it was really awesome!! pictures of different beaches here in the Philippines (and Amanpulo is included! yeah, Amanpulo!!), children with their warm & welcoming smiles, and other scenic view of our country. It says on the article if you want a copy, you can email Mr. Butch Jimenez, and its for free, no strings attached. So I just found myself composing an email to Sir Butch, talking about my love for photography, beaches & travel as well then asking for a copy if he still has a spare one to share with me. I’m not expecting a reply really but when i opened my email this morning, I saw a reply. i was thrilled!!! haha! i can get a copy of that beautiful calendar! it says on the email that i can coordinate with Sir Butch’s secretary so I can get a schedule to fetch the calendar. i answered right away, thanked him for the copy (and for being so accomodating & friendly on email) then i found out he’s from PLDT. coincidentally, my cousin is working there too so i asked if he happen to know someone by the name of Dennis Cerrer (again, not expecting for any reply at all). he replied and said, he doesn’t know my cousin but would love to meet him one day. after a few minutes i received another email by the name of Menardo Jimenez Jr. and the email domain belongs to PLDT. this email said: “hey dennis, i got an email from your cousin and she’s asking for a copy of my calendar.. regards, butch.” the email was sent to Dennis Cesar Cerrer and Sir Butch cc’d me.. apparently Sir Butch took the liberty to find my cousin and emailed him. Got so surprised when my cousin sent back a reply acknowledging me as his cousin and asking for a copy of the calendar too! such a small world!! i got so curious and googled Sir Butch’s profile. and to my surprise, i found out that he’s a big boss in Smart Communications (that explains the ‘sandbox’ theme!). he’s the senior vice president for the retail business group of PLDT. i was actually talking to the big boss (something i haven’t done before!)!!! so i immediately checked the emails i sent (thank God for the sent folder) and see if my grammar was ok, if my english was good, if my sentence construction is flawless & faultless and thank God it was! and i’m loving the fact that i constructed the email with utmost respect to the one i’m sending it.

two things i learned from this experience, courtesy & respect. you should always have it, never loose it. always give it to people you meet and people you talk to (either personal or via the web or something). coz really you never knew who you’re talking to, right? let’s take for example a situation in the workplace. you’re just a level 1 (very ordinary) employee working on reports needed by the bosses. you know you’re good at what you do and people say you’re smart. one day, you woke up feeling so important because everybody’s asking for your report, saying they needed you (or the report or whatever), then you suddenly felt that the world in the work place will cease to exist if you’re not gonna do your report. what you did was you by-passed several bosses and sent your report straight to the Director. think about it, just because you know you’re good and you feel indispensible, you now have the license to do that to the bosses? pagbali-baliktarin man ang buong mundo, empleyado ka lang, boss sila and being a smart-ass does not give you the license para mangbastos ng boss..

never feel superior to other people, remain as humble as possible at all times. got my parents to thank to for raising me up inculcating in my mind that if i want people to respect me, i should respect them as well.. in tagalog, mabuting pakikisama at respeto sa kapwa.. that’s all you need… =)

Again, pakikisama at respeto.. that’s the important thing.. =)

oh & somebody with no manners asked for my help yesterday & he didn’t even said thank you after getting all the things he needed from me.. manners people, where are your manners???

so that’s the wrap of my week! =)

another random thought…

i was scanning my playlist & a certain song caught my attention. because i’m into so much of RNB these days, I haven’t listened for it for a while.  it’s lee dewyze ‘sweet serendipity’. i plugged my earphones and hit play. and funny that while its playin’ on my playlist, MYX suddenly aired the video.. so i was thinking ‘what’s up with that?’ maybe someone’s communicating with me all along.. a higher power’s sending me a message ( well i’m definitely hoping to hear some good news coz i’m stuck in rut these days) and been calling my attention for the longest time. and once again, i am inspired by the song.. =)

“i ain’t got no car.. and i’ve got one pair of jeans.. they’ve been stretched too far and now weak at the seams.. i can’t say what’s next coz i’ve got nothing on my sleeves.. but i don’t loose my head coz it’s really not up to me..”

this line translates to me literally.. since my tito moved further south (to the mountains of Binangonan, Rizal) i’ve been planning to buy me self a car, not necessarily brand new, just a second hand working car coz I want to visit them as often as I can. problem is i ain’t have any money to buy a damn stupid car.. hay but the dream still lives… if i can’t buy a car (just for now), i can run as far as binangonan to see them! =)

oh and yeah, got 2 pairs of over-worked jeans.. i have the means to replace them or to buy 10 more pairs but i just don’t want to.. i’m comfortable with just the two of them and i wouldn’t trade it for anything in this world (well maybe I’ll trade it for 1 million dollars then maybe after that i can buy a car). much like a comfort blanket for me… =)

i’ve been thinking about career moves this past few days.. i’ve been plotting my moves, not just for my career but also trying to plan my life but i just realized that ‘hey, i can’t really say what’s next simply because i don’t know what’s gonna happen next!’ it really make sense right coz sometimes no matter how hard we plan for our lives, it never turned out the way its suppose to turn out not to even mention that the days ahead might be numbered (topic over lunch & merienda: end of the world). so might as well just let it be, enjoy the ride and embrace wherever life will take me coz really its not up to me… =)

And I’m doing just fine, I’m always landing on my feet.. In the nick of time and by the skin of my teeth.. I ain’t gonna stress cause the worst ain’t happened yet.. Something’s watching over me like Sweet Serendipity..

i get stressed out so much just by thinking what am i gonna do next but now i think i should just give it a break.. whatever will happen will happen, like it or not (right guys???).. what else can go wrong?? what more damage will it take?? i think i’ve already risked a lot just to get here because of one sole purpose so now i have to fulfill that purpose..

i don’t ask for a lot.. no nothing more than what i need.. because i love what i got, no need to play the lottery.. i just want to be strong and at the end of the road, i don’t want to hold on.. i just want the strength to let go..

i really should know when to give up.. recognize defeat and accept if it is already a lost cause.. how can i ever move on if i’d be hoping that everything’s alright even if it isn’t.. like with work.. i always whine and complain that this ain’t the field i want to work in. i have a lot of excuse for not taking the next train to my next destination but now that i’m yet again a year older, i should really be thinking about the things i want (emphasis on the word want) to do.. i’m running out of excuses and time, i’m not getting younger and each year that i spent stuck in whatever i’m doing right now equates to tons of guilt for not pursuing the things i love. i envy my friends who have the courage to just let go and do whatever they want.. now i can see that they’re happy & content. i guess i’m just afraid that i might end up losing everything that’s why i learned to just stick with whatever.. being the sole bread winner for the family, i have a lot of obligations that i need to prioritize over my dreams.. but thanks to the song, i finally moved to my first step.. i know my mom & dad will understand.. the line also applies to my ever zero love life.. i know, i know.. getting old and all yet i haven’t experienced anything in that department. believe me i tried.. to laugh, to love, then afterwards cry.. para na nga akong baliw! unfortunately it didn’t turned out well.. maybe its something that’s not for me.. i think i’m fated to be single for life. i takes some getting used to but i’ve already made peace with it.. i’ll just try to do everything in this lifetime (travel! travel! travel!) then that’s it!  =) now, all i want is the strength to just let go… =)

set sail without a destination.. just see where the wind will take you..

so i’m just letting everything fall into place.. bahala na si batman! i’m bracing myself and will just enjoy the ride.. =)

weekend!!! =)

i’m ending my week early today.. i’m blogging early coz i’m gonna be out of the office early too, dinner & movie night tonight with my college friends so i really have to be out early… it was suppose to be a get-together scheduled tomorrow but i won’t be able to make it so they just cancelled it out and instead we’re goin’ out tonight.

got so much to think about this week & lots of stuff to do at the office.. luckily, i was able to finish the reports just in time though i still need to wrap up a post-mortem report for one of my projects..

what am i thinkin’ about this week? lots of stuff fills my mind lately.. mostly about career & that someone sitting over there (i know right! i shouldn’t be thinking who i’m thinking about, sorry can’t help it!!!). career.. i wanted to pursue another path but i just couldn’t pluck up courage & just leave.. i’ve been in limbo for 3 years now going to 4 (now i should kill myself for letting this go on that long).. but i promise myself, i’ll have to do it next week, do or die! its now or never! let’s start next week…

someone asked me to go out & watch a movie with him, didn’t answer yes, said i have to think about it.. my weekend’s jam-packed again! i’ll be in binangonan tomorrow helping out my tita – they’ll be transferring to their new home (yes, sa malayong bundok ng binangonan rizal!). i have to be honest that i feel terribly sad about them leaving us but happy at the same time because finally they’ll be settling down in their own home! guess i’ll just visit them often (now thinking of buying a car so i can go there as often as i want).  sunday is a ‘running day’ so i’ll be up early and running then will do household chores.. after that will go to church w/ mom.. then it’ll be monday again.. oh and i can’t wait for summer.. been planning a trip for days now… =)

so that’s a wrap for me!  happy weekend everyone! now if i could just pull the time and make it faster so this day will be done & over with! =P

not vacation yet!!!

middle of the week tomorrow.. as usual, i’m stuck in the office, doing paper works while most of officemates have gone home and some are now enjoying a good night sleep.. i don’t want to go home just yet so i chose to stay here.. why didn’t i want to go home? at home, i’m just sitting around doing nothing ergo my mind wanders off somewhere and i’ll just be thinking about him.. so i decided its better for me to stay here in the office this late doing paper works so i’ll get my mind off him… but apparently, i can’t seem to figure out a way to take him off my mind, working or not working…

oh well, ano pa bang magagawa ko, 3 weeks na syang tumatakbo sa isip ko sana one time mapagod naman sya at tumigil ng bongga! )

its not yet the end of the week but it feels like it… today’s the last day here at the office (except me of course) but i’ll be here till the 23rd. i have to finish some stuff before the year ends so papasok pa ko till thursday. then thursday i’ll be attending the simbang gabi here in our little chapel. so technically ang start ng vacation ko ay 24th… i’m not complaining though… i love work! (plastic..) seriously, i love working… but i’m just saddened by the fact that i won’t be seeing him anymore… =’( hay, di ko man lang nabati ng merry christmas… stupid me really…

now, to recap what happened to me this past few weeks…

.. i was able to roll out a project before the year ends and it really feels good but i have to re-think of my career path next year… i’m on a road that i’m not supposed to take and the path where i should be was long lost and forgotten.. so sana next year i’d be able to find my path again.. would really really love to start studying film or culinary arts next year so i can start building the career that i really want to pursue..

..i’m still clueless whether the feeling is mutual.. i’ll have to admit i really really as in really like him but i don’t think he likes me as much as i like him to like me… ang gulo!!! ) but seriously, he’s not easy to read… but this past 2 days i’m observing him and found out that… basta, nahuli ko more than 3 times… still the question is, like nya kaya ako? that’s for me to find out..

..sometimes nakakapagod din na magpapansin ng magpapansin kaya time out muna since bakasyon naman.. hehehe.. let’s sit back and relax habang bakasyon.. =P

so there.. looking at it parang sa kanya na naubos ang buong week ko ah.. o_O haha! this is not good.. malapit na ko mabangin! ) yun lang.. it’ll be a stressful bakasyon for me but i can say i’m up for the challenge! let’s get it on! =)

SPELL EFFORT…

ok.. let’s all spell the word E-F-F-O-R-T…

i slept at effin’ 3am last night just to wrap his gift and to write a decent note for him then i’ll hear nothing.. not even one effin’ thank you!!! what the mother fucker is he thinking?!?!?! o_O

now i wish i hadn’t done that… i look ridiculously stupid!!! what the hell am i thinking?!?!? really.. i almost faint due to lack of sleep and now all my efforts are unappreciated.. hay nako, this won’t happen again.. AYOKO NA!!! if i could take back all the gifts, i would and for the record the pen i gave him is expensive ha! nako talaga naman!!! arrrggggzzzz!!! kainis!!! sana ako na lang gumamit… if i only knew…

now i’m not just PISSED! i am terribly disappointed and disgusted with him! kung pwede lang pa-salavage, pinasalvage ko na!!! amf!!!